this song makes me think of jeff so much. it really does. it must have been what he felt when he desired for a person to become a permanent part of him.
I had to ask. “Jeff, why did you wear this guy’s face?”
Dahmer continued to smoke as he answered. “Pat, I already told you that I wanted to keep these guys with me. I didn’t want them to leave. I loved them. That’s why I killed them. That’s why I saved their body parts. That’s why I ate them—so they could become one with me. I thought if I could preserve this guy’s skin, I could wrap myself in him. His outer shell would surround me. I would actually be in him. We would be one.”
The room fell silent. Patrickus wrote in her notepad, and Murphy and I sat without a word, letting Dahmer’s heartfelt explanation sink in.
— Grilling Dahmer: The Interrogation Of “The Milwaukee Cannibal” by Patrick Kennedy, Robyn Maharaj
if only he’d expressed this in a healthier way, with the consent of the other person, then maybe it would have gone more like this song portrays. 💔 but i wonder if this is what he was longing for — a connection so irreversibly deep and profound, two souls blended together fully, to the point where he was them and they were him.
it’s sad to know he was never able to find this consensual arrangement with a partner, instead feeling like he had to completely dominate them in order to have anything at all that wasn’t just a fuck-and-dump. perhaps in the next life, he will be — or already is — healthier, and he can have this intensely deep and unbreakable bond with someone who feels the same way.
You have bound my heart with subtle chains
So much pleasure that it feels like pain
So entwined, now that we can’t shake free
I am you and you are me
No escaping from the mess we’re in
So much pleasure that it must be sin
I must live with this reality
I am yours eternally
There’s no turning back
We’re in this trap
No denying the facts, no, no, no
No excuses to give
I’m the one you’re with
We’ve no alternative, no, no, no
Dark obsession in the name of love
This addiction that we’re both part of
Leads us deeper into mystery
Keeps us craving endlessly
Strange compulsions that I can’t control
Pure possession of my heart and soul
I must live with this reality
I am you and you are me
I am you and you are me
I am you and you are me
I am you and you are me
There’s no turning back
We’re in this trap
No denying the facts, no, no, no
No excuses to give
I’m the one you’re with
We’ve no alternative, no, no, no
Jeffrey Dahmer Memorial 