The City That Wasn’t Looking: Milwaukee, 1978–1991

Every account of Jeffrey Dahmer eventually arrives at the same question, and almost always phrases it the same way: how did he get away with it for so long?

The question contains an assumption worth examining. It assumes the answer lies in him — in his cunning, his ordinariness, his ability to pass. It assumes that the obstacle he had to overcome was a city looking for him.

Milwaukee was not looking for him. To understand the thirteen years between Steven Hicks and Tracy Edwards, you have to understand the place, and the place was not a neutral backdrop against which one man operated. It was a city with a specific economy, a specific geography of race, a specific police department, and a specific set of assumptions about whose disappearance constituted an emergency. He did not slip through the gaps. He moved through a structure that was already built.

The brutal decade

The Milwaukee of the 1980s was a city coming apart economically, and the numbers are stark. Between 1979 and 1983, some fifty thousand manufacturing jobs left the city. Across the decade as a whole, the metropolitan area lost roughly a fifth of its industrial employment — a rate about three times the national average. Schlitz shut its Milwaukee brewery in 1981. Allis-Chalmers, once the largest industrial employer in Wisconsin, went bankrupt in 1987.

This was the city that had called itself the machine shop of the world. By 1986, service work had overtaken manufacturing for the first time. The economist Marc Levine’s summary of the period is blunt: the 1980s were the brutal decade in Milwaukee.

Two consequences matter for this history.

The first is personal. This is the labour market in which Jeffrey Dahmer worked the third shift at the Ambrosia Chocolate Factory — eleven at night to seven in the morning, six nights a week. The nocturnal, marginal, replaceable work he did was not incidental to how he lived. It set his hours, and his hours were the city’s empty ones.

The second is structural, and far more important. Deindustrialisation did not fall evenly. Nearly half of Black male workers in Milwaukee held manufacturing jobs, and the plants that closed were concentrated on the north side, where Black Milwaukee lived. The collapse landed hardest on precisely the neighbourhoods that already had the least, and it produced a population of young men with irregular work, unstable housing and every reason to accept fifty or a hundred dollars from a stranger who wanted to take photographs.

Dahmer’s offer was not exotic. It was an offer that made sense in that economy.

The most segregated city in America

Milwaukee has been ranked, decade after decade, among the most racially segregated metropolitan areas in the United States. It still is. The pattern was built deliberately over the twentieth century through redlining, restrictive covenants that barred Black residents from most of the city, and suburban zoning that priced them out of everywhere else. Black Milwaukee was confined to the near north side, and stayed there.

This is not background colour. It is the operative fact of the case.

Segregation determined who lived in the neighbourhood around the Oxford Apartments. It determined that a white man in that building was unusual. It determined which parts of the city the police patrolled as territory to be contained rather than served. And it determined, decisively, whose reports were believed.

Milwaukee’s police department had been shaped for twenty years by Chief Harold Breier, who ran it from 1964 to 1984 and whose relationship with the city’s Black population was one of open hostility. He was gone by the time Dahmer moved to 25th Street, but a department does not change its habits in five years. When the Dahmer case broke, Black and gay leaders in the city argued that the force still operated on Breier’s assumptions. The evidence suggests they were right.

Walker’s Point

The other Milwaukee that matters here is a few blocks of Walker’s Point, south of downtown, where the city’s gay bars were concentrated.

Club 219, at 219 South 2nd Street, opened in early 1981 out of a short-lived predecessor called Trash. It became one of the central spaces in Milwaukee’s gay life — bright, loud, a dance bar with drag shows, eclipsed in scale by La Cage Aux Folles after 1984 but never displaced in affection. It stayed open until 2005. The building is still there, under another name.

Dahmer met Steven Tuomi there in September 1987. He met Raymond Smith and Richard Guerrero there. In May 1991 he met Tony Hughes there, and because Hughes was deaf, he wrote his offer down on a piece of paper. He met Jamie Doxtator at a bus stop outside it.

It matters how this is told. Club 219 was not a hunting ground that happened to have people in it. It was a community’s living room, in a city that gave that community very few places to exist, and it was full of people who knew each other. Eric Wynn, one of the few Black drag performers regularly working the club in the eighties, has described building a small following of young Black men who came to his shows because they saw someone like themselves on stage. Tony Hughes was one of them; he taught Wynn to fingerspell the alphabet.

Then some of them stopped coming.

Nineteen funerals

Set against this is the fact that makes the whole period legible: these were the worst years of the AIDS epidemic.

By 1987, when Dahmer began killing regularly in Milwaukee, more than half a million people in the United States were living with HIV. A bartender at Club 219 during those years, Scott Gunkle — who served Dahmer and found him entirely unremarkable — has described a year in which he attended nineteen funerals, someone dying every fortnight.

Consider what that does to the meaning of an absence.

In a community losing men constantly, a familiar face vanishing from the bar was not a mystery. It was the ordinary shape of the era. He got sick. He went home to family. He was too ill to come out. He died and nobody was told. There was no gap where an alarm should have sounded, because the alarm had been sounding continuously for years and everyone had learned to live inside it.

This is the single most under-examined element of the case. AIDS did not merely coincide with Dahmer’s most active period. It supplied the cover.

Who gets looked for

The families reported them. This needs saying plainly, because the standard account leaves the impression that these men vanished unnoticed.

Richard Guerrero’s father reported him missing two days after he disappeared in March 1988, and paid for notices with his son’s photograph in the local press. Jamie Doxtator’s mother reported him the day after he failed to come home. Reports were filed, again and again, by families who knew immediately that something was wrong.

Nothing came of them.

There is no single decision to point to — no officer who looked at a file and dismissed it. That is what makes it a structural failure rather than an individual one. A missing persons report on a young Black or Latino or Native man from the north side, in a city that had spent decades treating those neighbourhoods as a containment problem, simply did not generate urgency. It went into a system that had already decided what it was worth.

Seventeen men and boys died. The overwhelming majority were Black, Latino, Asian or Native American. That is not a coincidence of who happened to be in the bars. It is a description of whose disappearance a city was prepared to tolerate.

27 May 1991

Everything above converges on one night, and if the article has a centre, this is it.

Fourteen-year-old Konerak Sinthasomphone escaped from Apartment 213, drugged and bleeding, while Dahmer was out buying alcohol. He was found in the street by Sandra Smith and Nicole Childress, two young Black women, who called 911. Glenda Cleveland, Smith’s mother and Childress’s aunt, called as well.

Three officers responded: John Balcerzak, Joseph Gabrish and Richard Porubcan. Dahmer returned and told them the boy was his nineteen-year-old boyfriend, drunk after an argument. He gave a name that was not Konerak’s.

The officers believed the white man. They walked the boy back up to Apartment 213 — where the body of Tony Hughes was lying — and left. The entire investigation took sixteen minutes. A later review found they had violated departmental rules fifteen times, including failing to run any records check on Dahmer, which would have shown he was a convicted child sex offender then on probation.

Roughly ten minutes after they left, Glenda Cleveland telephoned again. She spoke to Balcerzak. She was told the matter was handled, and he declined to take the names of the two witnesses. She called again in the following days, after seeing the missing boy’s photograph in the paper. She called the FBI. Nobody acted.

Konerak was killed within the hour of the officers’ departure. Dahmer went on to kill four more men.

And there is a detail that turns the whole thing from failure into something closer to indictment. Konerak was the younger brother of Somsack Sinthasomphone — the boy Dahmer had assaulted in 1988, the offence for which he was on probation that very night. The same family, twice, by the same man. The record connecting them was one records check away.

The audio of the officers’ radio traffic later became public. They can be heard joking about reuniting the lovers, and about needing to be deloused after their time in the apartment.

What the city did afterwards

The response was immediate and furious. There were marches, vigils and sit-ins through August 1991. Jesse Jackson came to Milwaukee. The family of Oliver Lacy filed a federal suit against the city, arguing that the police had discriminated by failing to respond properly to complaints from minority citizens — and that Lacy and three other men would be alive had Dahmer been arrested on 27 May. The community activist Queen Hyler put the case bluntly: this is a very racist city.

Chief Philip Arreola — the first Milwaukee chief in modern times appointed from outside the department, brought in as a community-policing reformer — suspended the three officers.

His own force turned on him. In a survey of 1,339 officers, ninety-eight per cent said the suspensions were wrong and around ninety-three per cent declared no confidence in his leadership.

Balcerzak and Gabrish were eventually dismissed after a lengthy hearing process. They appealed, were reinstated with back pay, and returned to the department. Balcerzak later served as president of the Milwaukee Police Association.

That sequence is the whole story in miniature. The city was told exactly what had gone wrong, in public, with recordings. And the institution absorbed it and continued.

The empty lot

The Oxford Apartments were bought in 1992 by the Campus Circle Project, a redevelopment initiative connected to Marquette University, for $325,000. The forty-nine-unit building was demolished that November, fifteen months after the arrest, at the urging of victims’ families. The chocolate factory came down the following year; the Milwaukee Bucks’ arena stands on part of that ground now.

The lot at 924 North 25th Street is still empty. Grass and a chain-link fence.

There were proposals over the years — a playground, a park, a missing persons centre, a memorial to the seventeen. None was built. The objection, then and now, is that a memorial would draw the wrong kind of visitor. The current alderman for the area has called the idea a terrible one. Some of the victims’ relatives agree; others have wanted a memorial for thirty years.

(Photo by Steve Kagan/Getty Images)

So the site of the most notorious crimes in the city’s history is a fenced rectangle of nothing, and the seventeen men and boys have no marker anywhere in Milwaukee.

The point of asking about the city

None of this diminishes what Jeffrey Dahmer did or shifts the responsibility for it. He chose every one of those men. He is answerable for all of it.

But “how did he get away with it” has an answer, and the answer is not that he was brilliant. He was arrested twice for sexual offences during the killing years and served neither a serious sentence nor a serious assessment. He was on probation while killing. He was caught, in effect, by three officers who then handed his victim back to him. He was not hard to see. He was simply not looked at.

What let him continue was a city where a certain kind of man could vanish without consequence — because the plants had closed on his side of town, because the police had spent decades treating his neighbourhood as hostile territory, because his community was burying men every fortnight anyway, and because when his mother or father filed a report, the report went nowhere.

Dahmer did not create those conditions. He found them, and used them for thirteen years.

That is the part that should be uncomfortable, and it is the reason this article exists. A man like him is rare. A city like that was not.


Sources: Encyclopedia of Milwaukee (UW-Milwaukee); Marc Levine, UWM Center for Economic Development; Brown University Diversity and Disparities Project; Wisconsin LGBT History Project; WUWM Milwaukee Public Radio; Associated Press and UPI contemporaneous reporting, 1991–92; Christian Science Monitor, August 1991; Milwaukee Journal Sentinel; Milwaukee Fire and Police Commission findings.

The Temple: Infinity Land Rebuilt

We have written before about Infinity Land, the game Jeffrey Dahmer invented at nine years old — fleshless stick figures moving across a drawn landscape, annihilated if they came too close to one another, surrounded by spirals descending toward a black hole at the centre. That article argued the game never really ended; that it scaled up.

This is about what it scaled into.

What he was building

In the summer of 1988, Jeffrey bought a long black table and two statues of griffins. He was twenty-eight and still living in his grandmother’s house in West Allis. The purchase was not decorative. He had been turning an idea over since the previous year, and these were its first physical components: the table would be the altar, and the griffins — eagle-headed, lion-bodied, traditionally guardians of treasure — would protect it.

The design, as he described it after his arrest, called for skulls arranged along the table and two complete skeletons standing at either end. Incense. Blue lighting. He would sit in front of it.

He never finished it. When the apartment was searched in July 1991 police recovered the table, the griffins, eleven assorted heads and skulls, and the two skeletons — one from Ernest Miller, one from Oliver Lacy, whom he had defleshed specifically for the purpose. He had also looked into buying a freeze-drying machine, wanting to preserve bodies whole rather than reduce them to bone, and abandoned the idea when he found one large enough would cost around thirty thousand dollars.

The griffins were damaged before the end. One of the men he attacked fought back hard enough to knock the table and send them over. He kept the broken statues anyway.

Why it is the same object

Set the temple beside the game and the correspondence is close enough to be uncomfortable.

Infinity Land was populated by figures stripped of flesh — not people with contours, but bone. The temple was to be built from skulls and skeletons: the same reduction, carried out on real bodies.

In the game, the figures were arranged across a landscape and destroyed if they came too close. In the temple, the skulls were to be placed along a table at fixed intervals, permanently positioned, permanently apart. The proximity rule survives intact — it simply becomes a seating plan.

The game had a black hole at its centre, and Jeffrey described that nothingness to a prison therapist as soothing rather than frightening. The temple had a black table at its centre, and he described what he wanted from it in almost the same register. He called it a place where he could feel at home.

And in both, the essential feature is authorship. The nine-year-old drew the borders and decided the physics of his world. The adult was constructing a room in which he set the arrangement, the lighting, the rules, and the population — a space where nothing could arrive unannounced, change its mind, or leave.

The child made a world he controlled because he could not control the one he lived in. The adult was still making one. He was simply using different materials.

What the court could not decide

The temple became one of the strangest disputes of the 1992 trial, and the disagreement was not really about the facts.

For the defence, Dr Carl Wahlstrom pointed to it as evidence of a mind operating outside reality, citing Jeffrey’s intention to build a power-bestowing shrine alongside his attempts to create compliant companions as reaching psychotic proportions.

For the prosecution, Dr Park Dietz argued that it demonstrated nothing of the kind. Jeffrey did not truly believe the shrine would give him power, only that it might put him in contact with some spiritual force — which made it superstition rather than delusion, and superstition is not madness.

Dr George Palermo went further and simply declined to believe the temple existed as a plan at all, saying Jeffrey had mentioned it to him in passing and that he had reason to doubt it.

Brian Masters draws the distinction more usefully than any of them. A false idea is one that is factually wrong. A delusional idea is one that wrongly assigns power. The shrine was not a false idea — the table was real, the griffins were real, the skulls and the skeletons were real, and they were all found in the apartment. What was delusional was the expectation that sitting before them would confer anything at all.

He also places it in a longer tradition, and the comparison is bracing rather than flippant: churches across Europe have been built around body parts. Reliquaries hold bones. The faithful pin representations of damaged limbs to shrines in the belief that proximity to holy remains transmits power. The impulse to arrange the dead and draw strength from the arrangement is not, historically, a rare one.

What separates Jeffrey’s version is not the logic. It is that he supplied the relics himself.

Why a table

There is a further reading of the temple that belongs to Brian Masters, and it should be introduced as what it is: an interpretation, not a documented fact. We think it is worth stating anyway, because it asks a question nobody else thought to ask.

Why a table?

An altar, if you were designing one, would not obviously be a table. It might be lower. It might be smaller, or ornate, or raised. Jeffrey chose a long, flat, waist-height surface — and the reason that matters is what he actually used it for before any skull was ever placed on it. He draped the bodies of the men he killed across it. He arranged them on it and photographed their chests, abdomens and genitals. He made the first incision on it, before the dismemberment moved to the bathroom.

It was, functionally, an operating table.

On 19 March 1964, at the age of four, Jeffrey underwent a double hernia operation. We have written elsewhere about the psychology of early surgical trauma — that children under six suffer disproportionately because they cannot understand what is being done to them, that they become objects in the hands of strangers, that their emerging sense of autonomy is abruptly cancelled and nobody explains why. Afterwards, in pain that would have felt exactly like it, he asked his mother whether his penis had been removed. He told Dr Judith Becker about that question nearly thirty years later.

Masters’ argument is that control was taken from Jeffrey on an operating table at four and that he spent his adult life trying to take it back — that with his victims he was finally the surgeon rather than the passive child, handling their insides as his had been handled, cutting where he had been cut. On that reading, the black table is not an incidental piece of furniture. It is the operating table, rebuilt and owned, with him standing on the other side of it.

We flag the obvious limit: this is an interpretive claim, and Masters himself concedes it cannot be generalised — a great many children have hernia repairs and become nothing in particular. It explains rather more than a coincidence should, which is a reason to take it seriously and also a reason to be careful with it.

What is documented is narrower and stranger. At the 1992 trial, Dr Becker raised two things that had never been publicly examined: the hernia operation, and a childhood game called Infinity Land. Gerald Boyle prompted her gently on both. Neither was pursued.

Two keys, offered in open court, and nobody turned either one.

The thing worth saying plainly

There is a reading of the temple that treats it as the final proof of monstrousness — the horror-film altar, the serial killer’s trophy room. That reading is available and it is not entirely wrong.

But it misses what the Infinity Land parallel makes visible. The temple was not conceived as a display of what he had done. It was conceived as a place to sit. He described wanting to be in front of it, in the light and the incense, in the company of the dead — the only people, as he saw it, who had known him as he actually was.

A child who cannot find safety in the world builds a small one he can govern. That is ordinary. Nearly every frightened child does some version of it, and the ones who do are not marked for anything.

What is not ordinary is continuing to build it at thirty-one, out of people.

The continuity is the disturbing part, and it is also the part that resists any comfortable conclusion. The same need runs from the drawn spirals to the black table. The need itself was never the problem. What he was willing to do to satisfy it was.


Sources: Brian Masters, The Shrine of Jeffrey Dahmer (1993); Lionel Dahmer, A Father’s Story (1994); trial testimony, Milwaukee County Circuit Court, 1992; Milwaukee Police Department inventory of Apartment 213.

The House on South 57th Street: Jeffrey Dahmer’s Six Years in West Allis

There is a stretch of Jeffrey Dahmer’s life that almost nobody writes about. It runs from December 1981 to September 1988 — nearly seven years — and it takes place in a small, tidy house at 2357 South 57th Street in West Allis, Wisconsin, a suburb of Milwaukee. It was the house Lionel Dahmer had grown up in. It belonged to his mother, Catherine.

The reason it goes unexamined is easy enough to understand. Nothing about it fits the story people expect. There is no squalor here, no isolation, no absent family. There is a grandmother who cooked his meals and washed his clothes, a church on Sundays, a lawn to mow, a garden, a steady job. By any ordinary measure these were the most stable years of Jeffrey Dahmer’s adult life.

Three men were murdered in that house.

Both things are true, and the difficulty of holding them together is precisely why the period deserves attention. West Allis is where the comfortable explanations fail.

Catherine

Catherine Dahmer has been reduced, in most tellings, to a location — the grandmother’s house, the grandmother’s basement. She was a person, and the sources are unusually clear about what sort.

She was a lifelong Presbyterian who attended church every Sunday. Both Lionel’s memoir and Brian Masters’ account describe the same woman: kind, patient, unfailingly decent, working from the old-fashioned assumption that people will behave well if they are treated well. She was, by 1981, elderly and lonely, and the arrangement suited her as much as it suited anyone. Jeffrey would have room and board; in return he would help around the house and keep her company.

Asked directly whether he loved her, Jeffrey could not manage the word. He said instead that she had lived in that house a long time. It is a strange, sidestepping answer, and Masters reads it as an inability to make emotional contact rather than an absence of feeling — Jeffrey knew perfectly well that she was lovable and said so freely, but would not apply the verb to himself. Describing her, he had no such difficulty. He called her, in his own words, what you could call a perfect grandmother, and listed the qualities: kind, church-going, easy, supportive.

Masters makes an observation that is worth sitting with. Catherine Dahmer could have been a genuinely formative influence on her grandson, had he come to her earlier. By the time he arrived he was twenty-one, and it was too late. He could recognise her goodness. He could not absorb it.

What the house provided

He was sent there in the winter of 1981 because his father and stepmother had run out of options. He had been discharged from the army for drinking, sent to Ohio, arrested at a hotel within a fortnight for public drunkenness, and could not be trusted alone in the house or with the car. West Allis was a temporary measure. Lionel put him on a bus expecting him back within weeks.

Three months later, when Lionel and Shari drove up to visit, Jeffrey had decided he was staying. His father found him happier than he had been at any point since the army — mothered, fed, laundered for, with his days given a shape.

And that shape held for a while. He worked in the garden and mowed the lawn. He helped with the shopping and the cleaning. He went to church with his grandmother. He found work as a phlebotomist at the Milwaukee Blood Plasma Center, drawing blood — a skill he had learned as an army medic. He attended Alcoholics Anonymous. A young woman in the congregation took an interest in him, and his father encouraged him to call her. He never did.

After the plasma centre let him go — ten months, poor performance — there was a stretch of unemployment that ought to have been dangerous and was not. Masters describes something close to a genuine remission during 1982 and 1983: Jeffrey read the Bible alone as well as with his grandmother, gave money to street people, sent donations to missionaries. He was consciously trying to smother something in himself, and for a period it appeared to work. The memory of Steven Hicks receded. He imposed rules on his own body and kept them.

This is the part of West Allis that resists a simple reading. The conditions were exactly those that had ruined him before — no job, no structure, time on his hands — and this time they did not. What made the difference was a household: someone expecting him at meals, someone noticing when he came in, somewhere to be on a Sunday morning.

In January 1985 he was hired as a mixer at the Ambrosia Chocolate Factory, working the third shift, eleven at night until seven in the morning, six nights a week. He began paying his grandmother three hundred dollars a month in rent. His early performance reviews there were not merely adequate but warm — resourceful, congenial, neat, an asset to his department.

By every external signal available to his family, this was a young man slowly assembling a life.

What the record shows underneath

The external signals were wrong, and the documentation of how wrong is unusually complete.

On 7 August 1982, at the Wisconsin State Fair, he was arrested for exposing himself in a crowded area near the Coliseum. He was convicted twelve days later and fined. Two details are worth noting. The first is that the arresting officer’s account describes exposure rather than the urination Dahmer claimed. The second is that when asked for his address, he gave Bath, Ohio — his father’s house — rather than West Allis. Whatever else was disintegrating in him, he did not want his grandmother’s name on the charge sheet.

On 8 September 1986, two twelve-year-old boys reported a man masturbating by the Kinnickinnic River Parkway. Their description was accurate enough that a patrol officer stopped Dahmer nearby within the hour, and both boys identified him. He was charged with lewd and lascivious behaviour and indecent exposure, and received probation and court-ordered counselling.

Between and around these two arrests, a third thread runs. In 1985, sitting in the West Allis Public Library, a stranger dropped a note in his lap propositioning him. He did not act on it. But the sources — and Dahmer himself, repeatedly — identify that moment as the hinge. His defence counsel would later call it the critical moment of his life. What had been contained by Bible study and self-discipline began, from that point, to erode.

The court-ordered therapy after the 1986 arrest produced its own record. He kept every appointment and turned his chair away from the therapist, sitting in silence for the full fifty minutes. The one session where he spoke at any length was about the Christmas presents he had bought for his grandmother. When the therapist tried to open up the relationship, he stopped talking.

What they saw, and what they did with it

This is the most valuable material West Allis offers, because it is a record of ordinary people responding reasonably to warning signs and getting nowhere.

Catherine found a full-size male mannequin in his bedroom closet, fully dressed. She could not imagine where it had come from or why. Challenged, Jeffrey said calmly that he had stolen it from a shop on a dare, that he had liked the clothes, and that he had already thrown it away. The matter, as far as he was concerned, was closed.

She found a gun under his bed. Jeffrey described it as a target pistol; when his father came to look, it was a .357 Magnum with a two-and-a-half-inch barrel. A family conference followed. Lionel took the gun away, had a friend sell it, and gave his son the proceeds.

She noticed he was gone for whole weekends. She was stopped on her own staircase one morning and told to go back up because he was not dressed, and later saw him steering a badly drunk man toward the bus stop. She came home from Sunday service more than once to a smell in the garage she could not place and did not believe was the cat box.

Each time, Jeffrey had an answer ready. The odours were chemical cleaners. They were chicken parts he was experimenting on with bleach and acid. When Lionel flew in to investigate personally and pressed him, the answer became a dead raccoon collected from a gutter. Lionel searched the garage and the basement and found nothing but stored lamps, a projector, Christmas decorations, firewood, a washer and dryer.

The pattern in these exchanges is worth naming precisely, because it is not stupidity. Catherine identified every genuine warning sign in the house. She reported them all. Crucially, she often reported them to Shari rather than to Lionel, saying she did not want to burden him — which meant the person best placed to act received the information at one remove, filtered and softened, and always after the fact.

And Lionel accepted each explanation in turn. His memoir is unsparing about this. He describes allowing himself to believe there was a line in his son that would not be crossed, a boundary between self-destruction and harm to others. He describes conversations conducted entirely in half-sentences, both of them maintaining a wall neither would name. As he puts it: this dreadful silence we called peace.

It is the most honest sentence anyone connected to this case has written.

The murders

None of the above should be read as a portrait of domestic life with the deaths as an appendix. They happened in that house, while all of it was going on.

In September 1987, Dahmer killed Steven Tuomi at the Ambassador Hotel in Milwaukee, bought a large wheeled suitcase from a Woolworth’s at the Grand Avenue Mall, and brought the body back to West Allis by taxi while his grandmother slept. The driver helped him load the case.

On 17 January 1988, he met James Doxtator at a bus stop and brought him back to the house. Jamie had told his mother that if he ever left home he would keep in touch. He was reported missing the following day.

On 27 March 1988, he killed Richard Guerrero, aged twenty-three, in the same house. Guerrero’s father reported him missing two days later and placed notices with his son’s photograph in the local press. Nothing came of them.

On 25 March 1989 — by which time Dahmer had moved out and moved briefly back, awaiting sentencing — he met Anthony Sears outside a bar. A friend of Sears’, uneasy, drove them both to West Allis and extracted a promise that Sears would call within a couple of hours so he could collect him. Sears was killed at the house that night. His friend went back the next morning to look for him and did not know which door to knock on.

Three men died in Catherine Dahmer’s home. A fourth was carried into it in a suitcase.

Being eased out

The end came through an accumulation rather than a discovery.

In 1988 a man named Ronald Flowers was brought to the house, drugged, and survived. That incident, along with the late-night arrivals, the drinking, and the general uneasiness about his guests, prompted a family conference — Lionel, Catherine, and Lionel’s sister Eunice. Dahmer’s own description of the outcome was that he was sort of eased out. Two decisions came from that meeting: he would find his own place, and he would seek help for his drinking. Lionel took him to Family Services on West Highland Avenue that April. The alcohol programme lasted four sessions.

There was one further factor. Catherine had found objects in his room — statues of griffins, a copy of The Satanic Bible, black lights — arranged in something like an altar. For a lifelong Presbyterian this was not eccentricity but horror. Jeffrey’s account was that he was merely curious about the unknown and that none of it meant anything.

He moved out on 26 September 1988. The structure that had held him — imperfectly, incompletely, but genuinely — was gone.

On the first day in his new apartment he approached a thirteen-year-old boy, Somsack Sinthasomphone, offered him money to pose for photographs, drugged him, and assaulted him. The boy escaped, was hospitalised, and led police back to the apartment. Dahmer was arrested at the chocolate factory.

The first day.

What West Allis actually tells us

The temptation with this period is to reach for one of two easy conclusions: that the love of a good woman nearly saved him, or that it made no difference at all. Neither survives contact with the record.

The structure demonstrably worked. Employment, a household, a routine, someone waiting up — these produced the longest stretch of relative stability in his adult life, and the sources show him actively using it, reaching for religion and discipline as tools against something he knew was in him. That effort was real. It was not sufficient.

And the failure was not for want of noticing. Catherine Dahmer saw the mannequin, the gun, the absences, the drunk stranger, the smell in the garage. She reported all of it. The system around her — a father seven hours away who wanted to believe his son, a family conference that removed one pistol, four sessions of alcohol counselling, a therapist facing the back of a chair — absorbed every one of those signals and converted them into nothing.

She spent her last years in a nursing home with dementia, searching at night for a staircase that was not there. Jeffrey wanted to write to her from prison, to tell her he loved her and that he was sorry for what he had brought on her. He was not allowed a pen, in case he used it on himself.


Sources: Lionel Dahmer, A Father’s Story (1994); Brian Masters, The Shrine of Jeffrey Dahmer (1993); Milwaukee County court records; West Allis Police Department arrest reports as cited in Masters.

Take Care, Take Care, Take Care: Lionel Dahmer and the Son He Could Not Save

Near the end of A Father’s Story, his own memoir, Lionel Dahmer arrives at the only piece of advice he says he can offer any father who comes after him. Not a lesson, not a warning sign to watch for — just three words, repeated: “Take care, take care, take care.” It is the closest thing to a conclusion a man can reach after spending a book, and a life, unable to answer the question underneath it: what did I miss, and could I have stopped this?

This is not the story of Jeffrey’s crimes. It’s the story of the man who raised him, watched him drift further from reach with every passing year, and has spent every year since trying to understand where he failed to hold on.

A boy who looked like himself

Lionel recognized his son in a mirror before he ever recognized danger in him. Jeff was a shy, awkward child, and Lionel had been exactly that kind of child too — inordinately shy, easily disoriented by change, socially unable to read the room. When Jeff’s first-grade teacher described a boy who paced the schoolyard alone and did “nothing” at recess, Lionel absorbed it through the lens of his own childhood: a phase, an adjustment, something a person could learn to live with, the way he had.

That identification cuts through the whole first half of the book. “I saw no reason why my son could not learn to live with them, too,” he writes of Jeff’s early isolation — and admits, decades later, that he was wrong. “While I had suffered from shyness, Jeff had begun to suffer from a near total isolation. While I had known the power of an odd fascination, Jeff had begun to move into the grip of a profound perversity.” The two conditions looked identical from the outside. Lionel now believes they were never the same thing at all.

One memory recurs for him more than any other. Coming home from work, he found Jeff alone at the edge of their lawn after a rainstorm, sobbing, arms flailing, mired in mud, their dog barking wildly around him — a small boy in a full-scale panic at the feeling of being pulled down into the earth. Lionel still asks himself, all these years later, whether that was a moment he should have read differently. He never resolves the question. He simply keeps returning to it.

The house he left him in

By 1978, Jeff’s parents’ marriage had collapsed entirely. Custody went to Joyce for David, the younger son; Jeff, nearly eighteen, was old enough to be left out of the arrangement altogether — which meant, for a stretch of that year, he was effectively left alone. Lionel had moved into a motel. Joyce and David eventually left too. Jeff stayed in the family house by himself.

When Lionel’s new partner, Shari, first walked through that house, she found it in poor shape — little food, a broken refrigerator — and, on the coffee table in the family room, a pentagram drawn in chalk. Lionel didn’t understand what he was looking at until later: Jeff had been performing séances alone in the house, trying to contact the dead.

Lionel moved back in immediately once he learned Jeff was alone. But the sequence itself — a boy left in an empty house for an unspecified stretch of a collapsing marriage, filling the silence with attempts to summon spirits — sits in the record as one of the more quietly disturbing details of his adolescence, and Lionel’s own book puts it there without much comment, simply narrated as one more thing that happened.

Not long after, Lionel and Shari drove Jeff to Ohio State University, a college he’d shown no enthusiasm for and was attending, by his father’s own account, “more or less on my orders.” What Jeff packed for the trip has stayed with Lionel: no books, no clothes anyone would expect of a freshman, but a snakeskin from Boy Scout camp and two photographs of his dog.

What a father chooses not to see

The most difficult passage in A Father’s Story isn’t about a single incident. It’s Lionel’s accounting of everything he didn’t see, laid out in a single unbroken run of admissions: he hadn’t recognized Jeff’s alcoholism until Shari found him drunk in his room. He hadn’t thought his son a thief until his own mother discovered a stolen mannequin in Jeff’s closet. He hadn’t understood Jeff was gay until information surfaced after an arrest for molesting a child — despite years of no dates, of taking a “friend” to prom, of never once expressing interest in a woman. And he had used the word “crazy” about his own son more than once, he admits, always in frustration, never once considering that he might mean it literally.

“It was a level of obliviousness, or perhaps denial, that was scarcely imaginable, and yet it was real,” he writes. “It was as if I had locked my son in a soundproof booth, then drawn the curtains so that I could neither hear nor see what he had become.”

Research chemist/author Lionel Dahmer, father of confessed serial killer Jeffrey Dahmer, standing outside of Columbia Correctional Institute where his son is imprisoned. (Photo by Steve Kagan/Getty Images)

That is about as unflinching as a father’s self-assessment gets, and this memorial has no interest in softening it on his behalf. But it’s worth naming plainly what Lionel does not do in this passage: he doesn’t reach for excuses, and he doesn’t stop at diagnosing his own blindness — he goes further, into the much harder territory of asking whether he was the source of what he failed to see.

The question he cannot put down

After the arrest, in the same Inside Edition interview where Shari wept for the victims’ families, Lionel offered a theory: that Jeff’s “madness” might trace back to medication Joyce had taken during her pregnancy. He later admits the theory went essentially unexamined — a father grasping for any explanation that wasn’t simply this came from somewhere in me.

But the genetic question doesn’t stay external for long. In his own writing, Lionel turns it back on himself directly, cataloguing his own childhood fascinations — with hypnosis, with building explosive devices, with once wiring the living room couch to shock visiting cousins as a “joke” — and asks, in language he doesn’t try to make comfortable, whether “some of the compulsions that overwhelmed my son may have had their origins in me.” He wonders whether his own “need for control,” his own violent impulses arising from childhood powerlessness, might have “come to Jeff through me.” His own psychologist, he notes, eventually had to caution him against overstating any single cause — a reminder Lionel includes in his own book, seemingly aware that his rumination was in danger of becoming its own kind of compulsion.

He never reaches a conclusion. He states this outright, more than once: he will never know how much of it was genetic, how much environmental, how much simple bad luck. What he does arrive at is a kind of standing verdict on fatherhood itself — that it is, in his words, “a grave enigma,” and that the only honest thing he can pass on to any father after him is the warning to pay closer attention than he did.

What was left, once there was nothing left to do

Once Jeff was sentenced and sent to Columbia Correctional Institution, eleven hours from home, Lionel writes that his role as a father had “almost disappeared” — reduced to visits, letters, and small, non-essential provisions. What grew in that reduced space, unexpectedly, was conversation. Father and son spent visits discussing intelligent design, evolution, the origins of life — Jeff, Lionel writes, had read thirteen books on the subject and engaged with real intellectual hunger. “It felt stimulating,” Lionel writes, “and I miss Jeff’s inquiring mind.” Alongside Roy Ratcliff’s ministry and Jeff’s baptism, this period represented something Lionel describes, without irony, as his son’s humanity “restoring itself.”

That restoration makes what follows harder, not easier. In July 1994, months before the attack that killed him, Jeff was attacked with a razor by another inmate. A prison chaplain reassured Lionel afterward that Jeff would be secure. Lionel later learned that Jeff had been left unsupervised for twenty to forty minutes with a different inmate — one with a documented history of attacking others and threatening to kill white people — despite an internal report flagging a specific threat against Jeff that CCI staff concluded was “not substantive.” When the fatal attack came that November, Lionel didn’t describe it as senseless or unforeseeable. He described feeling “lulled” and “betrayed” — and guilty, for not having pushed harder on prison security after the first warning sign.

Take care, take care, take care

Lionel Dahmer’s memoir does not end in resolution, and this piece won’t manufacture one on his behalf. He remains, in his own words, “a man in constant rumination” — uncertain whether nature or negligence or sheer chance produced what his son became, certain only that he will carry the not-knowing for the rest of his life. The mud on the lawn, the pentagram on the coffee table, the snakeskin in the college bag, the razor attack nobody took seriously enough — none of it adds up to an answer. It adds up to a father who kept looking anyway, long after looking stopped being able to change anything, and who left behind three words for anyone who might be standing where he once stood, not watching closely enough.


Sources cited

  • Dahmer, Lionel. A Father’s Story.
  • Masters, Brian. The Shrine of Jeffrey Dahmer.
  • Schwartz, Anne E. Monster: The True Story of the Jeffrey Dahmer Murders.
  • Kennedy, Patrick, and Robyn Maharaj. Grilling Dahmer: The Interrogation of the Milwaukee Cannibal.

The Topaz Ring

In the summer of 1987, Jeffrey walked into Bailey, Banks & Biddle at Northridge Mall in Milwaukee and paid roughly $1,500 for a ring — a large blue topaz set in gold. Asked about it later, his explanation was almost disarmingly ordinary: he had “always had an interest in jewelry and especially rings,” and the size of the stone appealed to him.

A year later, in the summer of 1988, he pawned it. Not at a jeweler this time, but at a gold-and-silver exchange on Bluemound Road, where he bargained the clerk up to $189 for a ring he’d paid nearly eight times that for. His own stated reason was blunt: his drinking had left him short on cash.

That gap — $1,500 down to $189 — is not, on its own, remarkable. People pawn jewelry for a hundred reasons that have nothing to do with anything sinister. What makes this exchange worth examining is what came next.

The question that was actually being asked

The document containing this account is not a jewelry appraisal. It’s a police report, compiled after Jeffrey’s arrest, following a tip from the Brookfield Police Department that he had pawned a ring in their city. Investigators weren’t interested in the ring as a ring. They were asking a direct question: did this come from one of his victims?

His answer was immediate and flat — no, and he “again denied selling any of the jewelry which he obtained from any of his victims.” Then, without being pressed further on the point, he added something no one had asked for: that if there was any jewelry taken from victims, “he simply threw it out in the trash, along with body parts.”

That sentence is doing an enormous amount of work in very little space. It is, technically, a hypothetical — if there was jewelry, here’s what would have happened to it. But it’s delivered with the same flat tone as everything else in his account, sliding a detail about disposing of human remains into what started as a question about a pawn ticket.

Setting this against what trophy-taking actually looks like

Criminologists who study sexual homicide offenders have a specific term for what Jeffrey is being asked about here: trophy-taking — retaining an item connected to a victim, not for its resale value, but for what it does psychologically. The research is consistent on this point: items are kept “not for monetary reasons but to serve the offender psychologically,” allowing the offender to revisit and relive the experience privately. The most commonly documented trophies across offender studies are body parts, photographs of the crime scene, and — specifically — jewelry or clothing taken from the victim.

Jeffrey is a documented case of exactly this behavior, just not with jewelry. Skulls, Polaroid photographs, and other remains were recovered from his apartment — trophies in the fullest sense the research describes. Which makes his specific denial here worth sitting with rather than passing over. He is not claiming he kept nothing. He is drawing a very precise line: photographs, yes; skulls, yes; a victim’s ring, no — that would have gone in the trash.

Whether that line is true is not something this record can settle. It’s possible jewelry genuinely held no significance to him the way other remains did — trophy-taking research does note that offenders are selective, not indiscriminate collectors, and what becomes meaningful to one offender may hold no charge for another. It’s also possible this was simply the safer thing to say to an investigator, a way to admit to the pattern in general terms — “if there was jewelry” — while denying the one form of it that would have been easiest to trace back to a named victim through a pawn shop record, exactly as this one was traced.

A small object, honestly

There is no way to resolve that ambiguity from this document alone, and this piece isn’t going to pretend otherwise. What’s certain is narrower: a ring bought for $1,500 out of an ordinary, almost sweet fondness for jewelry, pawned a year later for a fraction of that as his drinking worsened, and finally surfacing again after his arrest as the subject of a question about whether it had ever belonged to someone he killed. An object that started as a small personal indulgence ended its documented life sitting inside an interrogation about trophies and trash.


Sources cited

  1. Police report excerpt, Brookfield Police Department tip regarding Jeffrey Dahmer pawn transaction, released records.
  2. Sage Reference, Encyclopedia of Murder and Violent Crime — “Trophy Taking.” https://sk.sagepub.com/ency/edvol/violentcrime/chpt/trophy-taking
  3. Walter, N. et al. (2024). “Trophy, souvenir, or simple theft? Taking items from the victim in sexual homicide.” Behavioral Sciences & the Law. https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1002/bsl.2660
  4. “The collectors: Serial sexual offenders who preserve evidence of their crimes.” ResearchGate. https://www.researchgate.net/publication/259158356_The_collectors_Serial_sexual_offenders_who_preserve_evidence_of_their_crimes

Jeffrey Dahmer and the Jokes He Left Behind

Humour is not a word anyone expects to find near this story. But it is there, threaded through the record in two very different forms — the jokes a horrified public told about him, and the small, dark moments of levity that actually happened around him, inside the jail cells and interrogation rooms where his story was still unfolding in real time. Both are worth looking at honestly. Neither is comfortable.

The jokes that swept the country

Within two weeks of Jeffrey’s arrest, jokes about him were already circulating nationally. On August 6, 1991, The New York Times ran an editorial addressing the phenomenon directly, arguing that the jokes existed because “there is a need for people to distance themselves from the horror.”

That explanation is a reasonable one, and it was echoed by people who had no choice but to sit with the horror professionally. Anne Schwartz, the reporter who broke the story and covered the trial from the front row, later wrote that many of her fellow journalists told jokes throughout the proceedings specifically “in order to keep their sanity.”

But distance may not be the whole story. Within months, a publisher named Hart Fisher had turned Jeffrey’s crimes into a comic book through his company, Boneyard Press, and described the appeal to television cameras without any apparent discomfort: “It’s something you can’t get anywhere else — if you like the truth, if you like something a little bit more fresh, a little bit more bloody, we’ve got the meat.” That is not the language of someone trying to create distance. It is the language of someone selling proximity.

The joke cycle sat inside a larger pattern that scholars have since traced through the entire “serial killer” media boom of the early 1990s — the same years that gave the culture Hannibal Lecter as a sanitised, almost lovable version of the same figure. Anthony Hopkins later recalled being approached by twelve-year-old children asking him to perform Lecter’s “fava bean” line for their entertainment. Somewhere between the Times editorial and the comic book and the children asking a fictional cannibal to do a bit, the line between “processing horror” and “consuming it as entertainment” gets difficult to locate.

Jeffrey was not insulated from any of this. Letters reached him in prison keeping him “up-to-date on the latest ‘Jeffrey Dahmer’ jokes,” according to his father’s own account, and reporting from inside the jail described him as “visibly perturbed” by the jokes that followed him even among fellow inmates. Whatever function the jokes served for the public telling them, for the man they were about, they were simply one more form of the notoriety he could not escape.

The humour that actually happened around him

Separate from the joke cycle is something stranger: a handful of genuinely dark, unplanned moments of humour that occurred in the actual rooms where his case was being handled — not jokes told about him from a distance, but small human moments that happened to be, in a bleak way, funny.

The most widely cited is also the earliest. Minutes after Tracy Edwards escaped Apartment 213 and police discovered what was inside, one of the responding officers radioed dispatch: “The intoxicated Asian naked male [laughter heard in background] was returned to sober boyfriend.” A second officer, informed he’d be heading back to the station, added: “My partner’s gonna get deloused at the station” — followed by more laughter on the recording. This is gallows humour in its purest form: officers who had no idea yet what they’d just walked into, laughing at a domestic-dispute call minutes before it became one of the most notorious crime scenes in American history.

Inside the jail itself, the record shows a mix of hostility and small, incongruous moments of connection. Guards placed Jeffrey under 24-hour suicide watch — a light kept permanently on, flashlights turned on his face as he tried to sleep, three guards watching him urinate “and laughing as well,” according to Brian Masters’ account. He once sharpened his toothbrush in protest of what he considered unfair treatment, a small act of defiance that cost him a night sleeping on the concrete floor in his underwear. And yet amid the hostility, Masters records one genuinely tender moment: a guard, stepping away from his post for fifteen minutes overnight, told him simply, “Now don’t do anything stupid, Jeff.” Masters calls it “a tiny moment of connection” — and it is hard to disagree.

Jeffrey’s own complaints about jail carry a dry, almost absurd quality of their own. Asked what the days were like, he described having “nothing to do but watch the ants crawl around on the floor,” and described the bed bugs at night as something you could feel “jumping on your eyelids and nose.” A former inmate told the Milwaukee Sentinel that the guard posted outside his cell “reads him the paper, and talks to him about what he did to people and things” — offered as evidence of favourable treatment, but reading, out of context, almost like a description of an unlikely daily routine between two people stuck in a small space together.

Even the investigators had their own strange footnote. Detective Patrick Kennedy, who spent hours across the interrogation table extracting Jeffrey’s confession, moonlighted off duty as McGruff the Crime Dog, touring Milwaukee schools in a furry costume to teach children about the dangers of drugs. The man who sat with Jeffrey through some of the most disturbing testimony in American criminal history spent his weekends in a dog suit warning eight-year-olds about strangers.

Why this belongs in the record

None of this softens what happened. The jokes, the comic books, the gallows humour on a police radio — none of it changes the seventeen lives that were taken, and this memorial has never tried to weigh one against the other. But humour is also one of the most honest windows into how a society actually processes something it cannot fully absorb, and how the people closest to a case — reporters, guards, detectives — survive proximity to it day after day. The jokes told about Jeffrey say more about the country’s appetite for monsters than they do about the man himself. The small, dark moments that happened around him say something quieter: that even inside the most controlled, hostile environment imaginable, ordinary human behaviour — boredom, dry humour, a guard’s offhand kindness — kept finding its way through.


Sources cited

  1. Schwartz, Anne E. Monster: The True Story of the Jeffrey Dahmer Murders.
  2. Masters, Brian. The Shrine of Jeffrey Dahmer.
  3. Dahmer, Lionel. A Father’s Story.
  4. Kennedy, Patrick, and Robyn Maharaj. Grilling Dahmer: The Interrogation of the Milwaukee Cannibal.
  5. The New York Times, editorial on serial killer jokes, August 6, 1991.
  6. Academic discussion of the joke cycle, comic book publication, and Hannibal Lecter comparison drawn from a scholarly text on Dahmer and the construction of the serial killer figure in media.

August 24, 1993: A Crisis Report

On 24 August 1993, a report was filed at the Columbia Correctional Institution describing what staff called “unusual and bizarre behaviours.” Jeffrey had been discovered in his cell with a plastic bag wrapped around his head. Staff were able to get him to hand it over. He told a social worker he intended to make a noose out of his bedsheet. Later, while being escorted to the clinic for observation, he deliberately banged his head against a door and a window; when guards moved to restrain him, he warned them, “Watch out, I’ll bite.”

He was placed in restraints.

Fourteen months later, on 28 November 1994, he was dead.

It would be easy to read the intervening year as a straight line — crisis to conclusion — but that is not what the record supports, and it is not the aim of this piece. What the record does support is a single, specific, dated moment of documented psychological crisis, described in exactly those terms by the institution itself, at a point when nobody involved could have known what would happen fourteen months later. It deserves to be examined on its own terms.

What the behaviours actually indicate

Read individually, each element of that August report corresponds to a recognised category in the clinical literature on prison suicide risk, not simply a list of “acting out.”

A plastic bag over the head is a concrete, means-based gesture — not a symbolic complaint but an act with a specific method already in motion. The statement to the social worker about a bedsheet noose is a direct verbal communication of both method and intent, the kind of disclosure that risk-assessment frameworks treat as one of the clearest available warning signs precisely because it is not ambiguous. The head-banging that followed, once he was already under observation, reads as an escalation under acute distress rather than a separate incident — three connected behaviours across a single day, not three isolated ones.

Research into near-lethal and severe self-harm among prisoners is explicit that behaviours of this kind function as genuine precursors to more serious attempts, not as manipulation to be discounted. A related finding is worth sitting with directly: in jail populations, the majority of people who go on to die by suicide were not on formal suicide watch at the time of their death. Threats, gestures, and disclosed intent — exactly the pattern documented here — are consistently under-weighted by the systems meant to catch them.

Why a person reaches this point

The literature on why incarcerated people arrive at this kind of crisis does not point primarily to individual pathology. From the inmate’s own perspective, the dominant factors identified across studies are fear of the unknown, distrust of an authoritarian environment, a felt loss of control over one’s own future, isolation from family and outside relationships, shame, and the broadly dehumanising conditions of confinement itself. Separately, research consistently links poor emotional regulation, mental health strain, and a lack of meaningful social support to inmate suicidality — and specifically ties a lack of purposeful work activity to both suicidal ideation and suicide attempts.

That last point lands with particular weight here. The same records that document this crisis also show Jeffrey’s failing work evaluations in the same period, and his own words to a corrections officer: “I don’t care if you give me all zeros, I have a lot of time to do it.” Read in isolation, that line sounds like indifference. Read against the research, and against what happened weeks later, it reads more like the flattened affect of someone already in trouble.

The isolation question

The full incident report does not survive in the released excerpt to confirm his exact housing status that day, but the sequence itself is suggestive: a bag over the head, a stated intention to fashion a noose from a bedsheet, then head-banging severe enough to require restraint — none of this plausibly happens over an extended period with a cellmate present and unremarked upon. The likelier reading is that he was alone at the time, whether by assignment, protective custody, or circumstance. We treat this as a reasoned inference rather than a documented fact, and welcome correction if the full housing record says otherwise.

If that inference holds, there is a substantial body of research worth engaging with. People in solitary confinement make up a small fraction of the total prison population but account for a dramatically disproportionate share of prison suicides. Even protective custody — isolation intended to keep someone safe — carries the same psychological costs as punitive isolation, because the mechanism of harm is the isolation itself, not the reason for it. Some of the clearest data comes from outcomes after release: people who had spent time in restrictive housing were substantially more likely to die by suicide in the year after leaving prison than those who had not, with the risk compounding for each additional stay in isolation.

The institutional response and its limits

The response to the August incident was restraint and observation. This was, by any account, a genuine safety measure in the moment. But it is worth naming plainly what it was not: it was containment, not treatment. Nothing in the record suggests a sustained clinical intervention followed — no indication of ongoing psychiatric support, no apparent reassessment of his housing or work assignment in light of what had just happened. This matches a broader, well-documented pattern in correctional mental health: the system is generally built to respond to the moment of crisis, and far less equipped to address what produced it.

Where this sits against “The Mind That Wouldn’t Stay”

This memorial has already argued, in the “Trance States” piece, that Jeffrey’s dissociative episodes were clinically significant rather than incidental. That argument was built largely from pattern — testimony, later evaluation, retrospective analysis. August 1993 offers something different: a single, dated, contemporaneously documented crisis, described as serious by the institution at the time it happened, not reconstructed afterward. It does not replace the broader argument. It anchors it.

A crisis, not a footnote

None of this reframes what Jeffrey did, or asks the reader to weigh his suffering against the suffering he caused. Those are separate facts, and this memorial has never tried to make one cancel out the other. What this record shows is narrower and, we think, still worth stating clearly: fourteen months before his death, in an institution that documented it themselves, Jeffrey Dahmer was in genuine psychological crisis — and the response he received was restraint, not care. That is true, it is documented, and it belongs in the fuller account of who he was.

By April 1992 — sixteen months before this crisis — Jeffrey was on an antidepressant, two 20mg capsules of Prozac each morning, and was being seen three times a week by a clinical psychologist who did not consider him imminently suicidal at that time. Whether that level of care was still in place by August 1993 isn’t something this report confirms — it simply isn’t mentioned. But the contrast stands on its own: a year and a half earlier, someone was checking on him several times a week. In August 1993, what survives is a crisis and a set of restraints, nothing else. If his care had quietly lapsed somewhere in that gap, this is where it becomes visible.


Primary source: Columbia Correctional Institution incident report, 24 August 1993, released under open records request.

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The Diagnosis He Never Had: Jeffrey Dahmer and the Psychopathy Question

Ask almost anyone to describe Jeffrey Dahmer in one word, and somewhere in the first three answers you will hear it: psychopath. In the popular imagination, the words “serial killer” and “psychopath” are simply synonyms — one implies the other, automatically, in both directions.

Here is what the actual record says: Jeffrey Dahmer was examined by more forensic psychiatrists and psychologists than almost any defendant of his era. He was tested, interviewed, evaluated before trial and during it, by experts for the defense, the prosecution, and the court. And across all of it, psychopathy is the diagnosis that never arrives.

This article is about that absence — what it means, what it doesn’t, and why the distinction matters more than a label should.

What Psychopathy Actually Is

Psychopathy is not, strictly speaking, a diagnosis at all. It does not appear in the DSM, psychiatry’s diagnostic manual; the nearest DSM category, antisocial personality disorder, overlaps with it but is not the same thing. Psychopathy is a research construct, given its modern shape by Robert Hare’s Psychopathy Checklist–Revised (PCL-R) — a 20-item instrument, scored 0 to 2 per item by a trained examiner, maximum 40 points, with a conventional diagnostic threshold of 30 in North America.

The traits it measures fall into two clusters. The first is interpersonal and affective: glibness and superficial charm, grandiosity, pathological lying, manipulativeness, lack of remorse, shallow emotions, callous absence of empathy. The second is behavioural: impulsivity, parasitic lifestyle, poor behavioural controls, early and versatile criminality. The classic psychopath — the Ted Bundy type — is charming, grandiose, remorseless, and lies as easily as breathing.

Hold that portrait in mind, and now look at the man in the record.

What He Was Actually Diagnosed With

The experts at Jeffrey’s 1992 trial disagreed about many things, but their diagnostic vocabulary is consistent and conspicuous. Borderline personality disorder. Schizotypal features. Paraphilia — necrophilia — as the engine of the crimes. Alcohol dependence. Anxiety and depression, treated with Prozac at Columbia Correctional, as documented in the 1992 competency evaluation the memorial published earlier this year. (See “A Mind in Pieces” for the full diagnostic history.)

What no evaluator who examined him made central — not the defense experts, not the prosecution’s Dr. Park Dietz, not the court’s appointees — was psychopathy. The forensic literature since has noticed the same thing. A scholarly analysis of media portrayals notes plainly that Dahmer does not fit the clinical criteria for psychopathy, despite decades of media reporting to the contrary. Forensic psychology teaching materials routinely use him as the standard counter-example: Bundy the textbook psychopath, Dahmer the emotionally disturbed, compulsion-driven opposite.

And in 2018, the question was put to the instrument itself. A research team led by criminologist Eric Hickey retrospectively scored five serial killers commonly assumed to be psychopaths — Dahmer, Bundy, Gacy, Kemper, and Ridgway — using trained raters and the PCL-R. Only Bundy crossed the diagnostic threshold. Jeffrey Dahmer scored 23 out of 40: elevated, certainly, but seven points below the cutoff — closer to the general prison population than to the Bundys of the world. The researchers used his case specifically to illustrate their central finding: not all serial killers are psychopaths, and the most infamous one of all wasn’t.

Trait by Trait, Against the Record

Set the checklist beside the documented man, and the mismatches are striking.

Glibness, charm, grandiosity. Jeffrey was, by every firsthand account, socially awkward, monosyllabic, and self-effacing to the point of self-erasure. His documented self-descriptions run the other direction entirely: he called his crimes “a nightmare,” himself something that should have been put to death. His one flash of wit about fame — rolling his eyes at “the price of my infamy” — is wry and deflating, the opposite of grandiose.

Pathological lying and manipulativeness. Here honesty requires precision. During the crime years, Jeffrey lied constantly and sometimes with chilling effectiveness — most catastrophically in the Konerak Sinthasomphone incident. Deception in the service of concealment was fully present. But the psychopathic trait is lying as a way of being, gratuitous and lifelong. And the moment concealment ended, something remarkable happened: he became almost pathologically truthful. Sixty hours of confession. Every victim identified, including those police could never have connected to him. Photographic tests seeded with living men to catch him lying — he never once took the bait. Detectives and psychiatrists alike remarked that they had never seen a defendant so intent on being accurately understood.

Lack of remorse, shallow affect. This is the heart of the construct, and it is where the record diverges most sharply. The man who told Roy Ratcliff, unprompted, that he believed he deserved execution — and then asked whether continuing to live was itself a sin against God — was not performing shallowness. He wept over Steven Hicks alone in a dorm room at Ohio State. He described his own emotional numbness not with indifference but with grief: he hadn’t cried in years and didn’t know if he still could. A psychopath does not mourn his missing feelings. Mourning them is precisely the thing psychopathy takes away.

And the honest counterweight. The 1992 competency evaluation contains a harder sentence: one evaluator described him as lacking sincere empathy and real remorse. That assessment exists; the memorial does not hide it. Psychopathic traits were present in Jeffrey Dahmer — a 23/40 is not a zero, and no one should mistake this article for a claim that he was empathically whole. The question is not whether he had elevated traits. It is whether “psychopath” is the accurate frame. The instrument built to answer exactly that question says no.

Why the Label Matters

Because “psychopath” is not just a word — it is a full stop. It says: born without conscience, nothing here to understand, no door that anyone could have knocked on. It converts a human catastrophe into a species difference, and in doing so it lets everyone off the hook — the family that couldn’t reach him, the systems that missed him, the society that would rather have monsters than mirrors.

(Photo by Curt Borgwardt/Sygma via Getty Images)

The documented reality is harder to sit with. Jeffrey Dahmer appears to have had a conscience — damaged, buried under dissociation and alcohol and compulsion, but present and in pain. He knew what he was doing was monstrous; he said so, before and after arrest. The engine of his crimes was not the absence of feeling but a compulsion that overwhelmed the feeling that was there. That is not an exoneration — seventeen men and boys are dead, and elevated traits plus intact knowledge of wrong makes moral responsibility heavier, not lighter. But it is a different tragedy than the one the label tells. The psychopath story says such men must be detected and caged, because nothing else was ever possible. Jeffrey’s actual story — the lonely, drowning, help-resisting, guilt-carrying reality of it — suggests something more disturbing and more useful: that he was reachable, at least in principle, and no one reached him until a pastor with a whirlpool tub arrived twenty-two months before the end.

The memorial exists for precisely this kind of distinction. Getting the label right is not pedantry. It is the difference between a warning the world can learn from and a monster story it can only repeat.


Sources: E. Hickey et al., retrospective PCL-R assessment of serial murderers (2018), as reported in K. Ramsland, “Are All Serial Killers Psychopaths?”, Psychology Today (2025); R. Hare, Psychopathy Checklist–Revised; Jeffrey L. Dahmer, Competency Evaluation, Case No. F-912542 (April 27, 1992); Brian Masters, The Shrine of Jeffrey Dahmer (1993); Lionel Dahmer, A Father’s Story (1994); Roy Ratcliff, Dark Journey Deep Grace (2006). Related memorial articles: “A Mind in Pieces,” “The Mind That Wouldn’t Stay,” “A New Primary Source: The 1992 Competency Evaluation.”

Jeffrey And The Tin Whistle: A Small Document About Hope

Some primary sources arrive looking important. Court transcripts, psychiatric evaluations, sworn statements. And some arrive looking like this: a Wisconsin Department of Corrections property receipt, form DOC-237, the most bureaucratic piece of paper imaginable — and quietly one of the most human documents in the memorial’s collection.

Here is what it records. On May 10, 1994, a package arrived by mail at Columbia Correctional Institution for inmate 177252, Dahmer, Jeffery (the prison misspelled his first name). It came from a specialty shop called Anyone Can Whistle, in West Hurley, New York. It contained three items, listed in a staff member’s careful capitals:

1 — CLARKE TIN WHISTLE 1 — TIN WHISTLE INSTRUCTIONAL CASSETTE TAPE 1 — TIN WHISTLE INSTRUCTION BOOK

He signed for it on May 17. His signature — the same one on the Thanksgiving card he would send Roy Ratcliff six months later — sits at the bottom, next to a paragraph in which he formally agrees that none of his musical equipment exceeds $350 in value. The whistle cost a fraction of that. It is, famously, one of the cheapest real instruments in the world.

What a Tin Whistle Is

For readers who have never met one: the tin whistle — also called the penny whistle — is a small six-holed folk flute, one of the simplest instruments ever made. The Clarke company has been producing them in England since 1843, rolling a sheet of tinplate into a cone around a wooden mouthpiece block, essentially unchanged for nearly two centuries. It is the classic beginner’s instrument of Irish and Celtic folk music: cheap, light, easy to start, genuinely difficult to master.

If you don’t think you know its sound, you almost certainly do. It is the bright, airy, high voice threaded through most Celtic folk music — the sound most people today would describe, not inaccurately, as “the Lord of the Rings flute.” The Clarke in particular is known for a breathy, slightly husky tone that players call “chiff.”

It is also, in its upper octave, piercing. Gloriously, unapologetically piercing. Hold that thought.

The Date

Readers of this memorial may recognise May 10, 1994.

It is the day Jeffrey Dahmer was baptised — the day of the solar eclipse and the Gacy execution, the day Roy Ratcliff drove through a darkened afternoon to immerse him in a prison whirlpool tub, the day he came up out of the water saying “thank you.” We wrote about it at length in “The Day Jeffrey Dahmer Was Baptised.”

On that same day, in the prison mailroom, someone was logging his tin whistle.

Nobody planned this. The package simply arrived when it arrived, and a staff member stamped the date. But the coincidence is documented on both ends — Ratcliff’s memoir on one side, this DOC-237 form on the other — and it is hard not to sit with it for a moment. On the day grace entered his life through water, music entered it through the mail.

Why This Little Form Matters

Look at what he ordered. Not just the whistle — the instruction book and the instructional cassette. The full curriculum, for an instrument that costs less than a pizza.

That is not the purchase of a man passing time. That is the purchase of a man who intends to learn something — methodically, properly, from the beginning, the way he seems to have done everything. Readers of our analysis of his letters (“In His Own Hand”) will recognise the pattern instantly: this is the same person who flagged his own spelling mistakes in casual letters to penpals. Of course he ordered the book and the tape. He was going to do it right.

And there is something in that which deserves to be said plainly. In May 1994, Jeffrey Dahmer was two and a half years into a sentence of over nine hundred years. He had no prospect of release, ever. And he ordered a beginner’s instrument with a beginner’s course, which is one of the most future-oriented acts a person can perform. Nobody learns an instrument for today. Learning an instrument is a bet on tomorrow — on the version of yourself, weeks or months away, who can do something you currently cannot. It is hope, in the shape of a small tin cone.

He had six and a half months left. He didn’t know that. He was planning to get better at something.

The Lighter Part, Because It’s Real Too

And now the part that made us laugh, because humanisation includes comedy.

A Clarke tin whistle, in the hands of a beginner, in a concrete cell block, is an event. The upper octave of a tin whistle can cut through a pub full of fiddles; in a hard-surfaced prison unit it would have ricocheted off every wall like a musical fire alarm. Somewhere in Unit 6 of Columbia Correctional in the summer of 1994, the most notorious inmate in Wisconsin was working his way through a beginner’s instruction book — first the long slow notes, then the first wobbly scales, then, presumably, the first recognisable tune, played over and over the way beginners do.

We have no documentation of how his neighbours felt about this. We suspect we don’t need any.

There is something almost cinematic in the image: the man the world called a monster, sitting on his bunk with a Victorian-era folk instrument and a cassette tape, squeaking earnestly toward competence while the block goes quietly insane around him. It is ridiculous. It is endearing. It is deeply, stubbornly human. It goes on the shelf beside the taquitos, the Walter Mondale photo, and the letter about the frogs singing at night — the growing collection of small documented facts that refuse to fit the monster story.

Provenance

This document was shared with the memorial by our team member Sylli, whose contributions to the archive keep proving invaluable. It joins the letters, the Ratcliff card, and the 1992 competency evaluation in the memorial’s growing collection of primary sources — the paper trail of an actual human life, preserved one unglamorous form at a time.

Whether he ever got any good, no record says. That was never really the point. The point is that he wanted to.


Primary source: Wisconsin Department of Corrections Property Receipt/Disposition, form DOC-237, inmate 177252, dated May 10, 1994 (received) and May 17, 1994 (signed). Document courtesy of Sylli. Background on the instrument: Clarke Tinwhistle Co. (est. 1843).

In His Own Hand: What Jeffrey Dahmer’s Letters Reveal — and What They Don’t

Almost everything ever written about Jeffrey Dahmer was written by someone else. The trial transcripts, the psychiatric evaluations, the books, the documentaries — all of it filtered through other people’s frameworks and other people’s words. What has rarely been examined with any care is the small body of text he produced himself: the letters, cards, and documents in his own hand.

The memorial has gathered four such documents, spanning 1989 to 1994 — from his life before arrest to the final weeks before his death. This article looks at them through the lens of psycholinguistics: the scientific study of how language use reflects psychological states. It is, as far as we know, the first attempt to do so.

We want to be clear from the outset about what this is and is not. This is an exploratory reading of a very small sample, informed by published research — not a clinical analysis, and not a diagnosis. Where the science supports an observation, we cite it. Where we are simply describing what is on the page, we say so.

The Science, Briefly

The research foundation for this kind of reading comes largely from the work of psychologist James Pennebaker and colleagues, whose studies of “function words” — pronouns, articles, prepositions — have shown that the small, unnoticed words in a person’s writing correlate with psychological states more reliably than the dramatic ones. A few findings matter for what follows:

First-person singular pronouns. Elevated use of “I,” “me,” and “my” is one of the most replicated linguistic markers of self-focused attention, and correlates with psychological distress and depression across many studies.

Absolutist words. Research by Al-Mosaiwi and Johnstone (2018) found that words like “always,” “never,” and “completely” appear at significantly higher rates in the writing of people experiencing depression and suicidal ideation.

Politeness strategies. Linguists Brown and Levinson documented how people manage requests and social risk through “negative politeness” — hedging, apologising for imposing, softening. The degree and style of this management reflects how a writer perceives social relationships.

Concrete sensory detail. Genuine, present-focused writing tends to contain specific sensory observation; detached or dissociated writing tends toward abstraction and flatness.

With that foundation, here is what the documents show.

1989: The Letter to Judge Gardner

The earliest document is also the only one from Jeffrey’s life before the arrest — a written request to Judge William Gardner for sentence modification, following his 1988 conviction.

The surviving fragment reads: “This is why, Judge Gardner, I am requesting from you, a sentence modification. So that I may be allowed to continue my life as a productive member of our society. Respectfully Yours, Jeff Dahmer.”

Three things stand out.

First, the register. This is careful, formal, institutional English — “requesting,” “sentence modification,” “a productive member of our society.” He is writing in the language of the system he is addressing, mirroring its vocabulary back to it. This is a documented social-linguistic skill called register matching, and it shows an acute awareness of audience.

Second, the self-focus. In two sentences: “I am requesting,” “that I may be allowed,” “my life.” This is entirely natural in a plea letter — the genre demands it — but it is worth noting because of how sharply it contrasts with the last document in this collection, five years later.

Third, the handwriting itself. Unlike the later letters, this one is printed rather than cursive — deliberate, separated letterforms, the writing of someone taking visible care to be legible and correct before authority. We note this as a physical description only. Graphology — the claimed reading of personality from letter shapes — performs no better than chance in controlled studies, and the memorial will not lean on it. What we can say without pseudoscience is simply that the document is neat, effortful, and controlled, which is consistent with everything witnesses documented about his self-presentation.

There is a painful irony in this letter that needs naming: at the time he wrote these words about continuing life as a productive member of society, the worst years were still ahead. Whether the letter was cynical performance or something he believed in the moment he wrote it is unknowable. The competency evaluation we published previously documents that he resisted the therapy ordered alongside that sentence — so the record suggests, at minimum, that the words and the follow-through did not match.

April 1993: The Penpal Letter

The second document is a full letter to a correspondent, dated 4-24-93, written from Columbia Correctional Institution.

It opens: “Hi how are you? I hope that this letter finds you healthy and in good spirits. Over here in Wisconsin all of the snow has melted, the birds sing during the day, and the frogs sing at night. It feels like Spring is finally here.”

For a man so often described as affectless, this passage deserves attention. It contains layered, specific, sensory observation — snow melting, birds by day, frogs by night — organised into a small, almost literary parallel structure. This is not flat writing. Whatever else was true of Jeffrey Dahmer in April 1993, he was noticing the world through a prison window and translating it into warm, conventional, socially fluent prose. Research associates this kind of concrete present-tense sensory detail with genuine engagement rather than detachment; his conversational writing, at least here, does not read as dissociated.

The letter then moves to practical matters, and here the politeness patterns are striking. Asking his correspondent for money — twenty-five dollars, in a letter that explains he earns twenty dollars a month and spends it on cigarettes — he writes: “I hate to ask this of you, but could you please send over a check or money order…” This is textbook negative politeness: acknowledging the imposition, softening the request, apologising in advance. He manages the social risk of asking with the same care he applies to his handwriting.

And then there is the smallest and perhaps most telling detail in the whole collection. Mid-letter, he misspells a word, crosses it out, and writes above it: “sp?”

He is flagging his own spelling error, in a casual letter to a penpal, with a proofreader’s annotation. This is self-monitoring — a live record of a mind checking its own output for correctness even in low-stakes writing. It is one visible data point of the carefulness that runs through everything: the neat letterforms, the managed politeness, the register control. The competency evaluation documented a man of high measured intelligence with obsessive-compulsive behavioural features; this little “sp?” is what that looks like on paper.

December 1993: The Hand

The third document is not primarily text at all. Sent to a correspondent named Dahlia in December 1993, it is a traced outline of his own hand, signed with his name and his inmate number, 177252, written on the palm.

The accompanying words are minimal — a greeting, “Thank you!”, “Love, Jeff.” There is little language to analyse here, and we will not overreach. But the artefact itself says something the letters cannot: asked to give something of himself to a stranger, he gave the outline of his own hand — the most literal self-portrait available to a man with no possessions. He labelled it with the two identifiers the world had left him: his name, and his number.

We offer no psychological claim about this. We simply note that people across every culture trace their hands as a way of saying I was here, this is me — children do it in school, prisoners have done it for as long as there have been prisons. It is among the most human gestures there is.

November 1994: The Thanksgiving Card

The final document is the card he sent to Roy Ratcliff, the minister who baptised him, in the last weeks of his life. Ratcliff described it in Dark Journey Deep Grace as one of his most treasured possessions.

The handwritten message reads: “Thank you for your friendship, and for taking the time and effort to help me understand God’s word. God bless you and your family! Sincerely, Jeff Dahmer.”

Set beside the 1989 Gardner letter, the shift in linguistic orientation is unmistakable. The 1989 letter is built around the self: I am requesting, that I may be allowed, my life. The 1994 card is built almost entirely around the other person: your friendship, your time and effort, you and your family. The only self-reference — “help me understand” — casts himself as a learner receiving something, not an agent demanding something.

The research on pronoun orientation is relevant here: outward-directed, other-focused language is associated with connection and gratitude; inward-directed language with distress and self-focus. On a sample of two short documents we cannot claim a measured trajectory — we want to be honest about that. But the direction of the shift matches, exactly, what every witness to his final years described: Ratcliff’s account of a man surprised that anyone would keep visiting him, the Thanksgiving card itself, the documented seriousness of the spiritual turn. The language on the page and the testimony about the man point the same way.

What This Does and Does Not Show

Read together, the four documents give us a consistent portrait in some respects and an honest limit in others.

What is consistent: carefulness. Across five years, two facilities, three genres, and audiences ranging from a judge to a penpal to a pastor, every document shows the same controlled, effortful, correctness-monitoring writer — neat letterforms, managed register, softened requests, a spelling annotation in a casual letter. The linguistic record matches the behavioural one: the politeness noted by detectives, the precision about the baptismal words, the methodical habits documented everywhere.

What is suggestive but not provable: the shift from the self-focused instrumental language of 1989 to the other-focused gratitude of 1994. It aligns with the documented biography of his final years. It is also two short texts, in different genres, and we will not pretend that is a dataset.

What is absent: the markers one might expect. In this small sample there is little of the absolutist vocabulary associated with depressive writing, no flattened affect in the conversational prose — the spring passage is the opposite of flat — and no linguistic strangeness at all. And perhaps that is the finding. The man whose inner life contained what his did wrote letters that are, linguistically, almost aggressively ordinary: polite, careful, warm within convention, worried about spelling. The gap between the interior documented in the clinical record and the surface of these pages is the same gap everyone who met him described — and here it is, preserved in ink.

This article is part of an ongoing series examining primary sources. See also: “A New Primary Source: The 1992 Competency Evaluation” and “The Mind That Wouldn’t Stay: Jeffrey Dahmer’s Dissociative Episodes and What They Tell Us.”

Documents: letter to Judge William Gardner (1989, court record); letter to a correspondent, April 24, 1993; hand tracing sent to Dahlia March, December 1, 1993; Thanksgiving card to Roy Ratcliff, November 1994 (reproduced in Ratcliff, Dark Journey Deep Grace, 2006). Research references: Pennebaker, The Secret Life of Pronouns (2011); Al-Mosaiwi & Johnstone, Clinical Psychological Science (2018); Brown & Levinson, Politeness: Some Universals in Language Usage (1987).